the best AI season ever!

American Idol Carrie Underwood. Loving the dress! :)

The BEST Final Two. Hands down.

bless the broken road. alone. angels brought me here. if you don't know me by now.

go carrie! :)

i just love oldies :)

Originally done by Smokey Mountain, revived by MYMP.

Bakit kaya nangangamba
Sa tuwing ika'y nakikita
Sana nama'y magpakilala

Ilang ulit nang nagkabangga
Aklat kong dala'y pinulot mo pa
'di ka pa rin nagpakilala

Bawat araw sinusundan
'di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin

Bakit kaya umiiwas
Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas
Nais ko lang magpakilala

Dito'y mayroon sa puso ko
Munting puwang laan sa 'yo
Maaari na bang magpakilala

Bawat araw sinusundan
'di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin

Kailan (kailan), kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim
Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin
Kailan (kailan), kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin
Kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin

summer once again

Had my last exam earlier, now I'm free! Weeeeeeeee! :)
I have about three weeks till classes start again in June, and I can't believe I turned down a free trip home. With OrSem, reg, and everything else, sayang lang. Oh well. Hope the free trip is still valid during sembreak (which I heard will last for a month daw! How true?!). I will be needing such generosity especially since Pacific's screwing up everything. Grrr.

On a much lighter note, I am so FREE! Did I say that already? Haha. And I'm glad I won't be stuck at home for the next few days because there is just nothing to eat here! I have ACTM stuff tomorrow, probably meet up with Mama A. on Thursday, then TNT training on Friday-Sunday. And on Monday, Yaya Nats will be here na! :) Yay! Domesticated no more. ;p

Oh yeah, and Yet's gonna be back June 3! Can't wait! :)

so much for dieting

Looking at myself in the mirror makes me shake my head in disapproval every time. I am gaining weight AGAIN. Having no Yaya Nats (meaning no cook) around should have meant less food intake - because I'm too lazy to cook and even lazier to go out and buy food - but no, I gained instead.
I saw Kitchie Nadal's live performance of "Same Ground" earlier on myx, and she looks like she lost a lot of weight. Grrrr. After that came Lindsay Lohan's "Over". Dang. They aren't skin and bones, they aren't tub-tubs like me either. They're just right. Argh. I hate this. So after watching the video I told myself I wouldn't have my usual sandwich for dinner, no more carbs at night. So my alternative was to take in a lot of liquids, to somehow keep me full. My mind was pretty set for just plain spam for dinner but at around 630, Tita Des asked if I could cook RICE coz P. Butch was bringing home some pata tim. Oh no. I told myself we had red rice anyway, so it was really not that big of a deal. And we haven't had rice for three weeks so it wouldn't really hurt right? But when P. Butch arrived, I just had to say goodbye to my diet. The cuapao that came with the pata tim was just too good to refuse. Major carbs. Damn.
Oh well. I will start tomorrow. Mark my word. ;p

finally!

Finally I get to post photos! Hope this works :)

Lunch at World Topps. :)

camera babies! taken inside an ATM booth ;p

Shakey's ice cream bar + predictions galore = pure F-U-N!!! :D

ACTM here we come! :)

don't you just love their humor? :)

Over lunch earlier, Yda done with her boneless bangus meal, leaving only the skin:

Kynan: 'Di mo kinakain yung skin?
Yda: It's unhealthy.
Kynan: Talaga?! How come?
Yda: Halos lahat ng skin unhealthy noh. Like skin ng fried chicken, etc.
Kynan: (he had lumpiang shanghai) Eh pa'no yung skin ng lumpia?
Yda: 'Yan din, fried nga eh.
Kynan: Eh pa'no skin ng white rabbit?
Yda: Ewan.
Kynan: Eh pa'no skin ng banana?
Me: Hello. May kumakain ba nun?
Kynan: Oo. Mga monkeys!
Yda: (in a very serious tone) Hindi kaya.
Kynan: So you mean yung monkeys binabalatan ang saging?!?
Yda: (still maintaining the serious tone) Oo noh.
Kynan: Talaga?! (believing for a split second before bursting into laughter) Sige nga, dapat pumunta tayo ng Manila Zoo one of these days tapos bigyan natin yung monkeys dun ng saging!!!
Yda: Kaya nga sila ang animals na pinaka-parang humans dahil matalino sila.
Kynan: Ha?! (with a mezmerized look on his face)

Hahaha. Ang saya diba? :)

best days

Today was a better day. One of my best days in fact.

I love my friends. :)

==
"Sometimes the weather can be rain, but one day it will be sunny again. Without the clouds of life, it's just another sunny day."
- from Best Days by Juice

stupidity

I could have asked the people who would give me straight answers but I won't. I desperately want to find out what happened between them, but a part of me still wants to hear the truth from him. Everyone else could be giving their own versions of the story - to make it more juicy, more complicated, than it actually is. What did he, or they (who is this girl anyway?!) do that angered the ex so much? Nothing more than getting together and playing around. Jeez, I hope not.
And what was I thinking? I now realize I don't really know him after all. I was right. He is full of mystery, and he won't let me in. I feel so stupid, allowing myself to be swept away by someone I barely know. I had that lurking thought at the back of my mind - he did it before, he could always do it again. Although now, I don't know if he did exactly what I think he did. Wow, I can't believe this. I'm even giving him the benefit of the doubt. Gah. Maybe that's why Jess held everything back. Reasons. They should fall into place.

Besides all the controversy, I still can't help but be worried about him. The guy who's blood he boiled isn't someone he can easily call a truce with. He's one of those stuck up pricks who aren't afraid of pulling the trigger on whoever pisses them out. I'm serious. He says he didn't fight back. That's all he told me. I asked M for details, he says he can't tell. He says he doesn't want to tell me because "it isn't a very nice thing to hear, much more to think about."Great. Thanks for being helpful. I couldn't pry further because he might get all suspicious about me and whatever relationship I have with B, clearly something that should not be brought up right now.

So here I am left to wonder. And very close to affirming my theory that ALL men cheat at least once in their lives.

sorts

Just a few realizations today:

- Life may seem unfair, but there are always reasons why things are how they are.
- In the end, it's only your immediate family who you can call your own. Love them dearly.
- There are times when you just have to sacrifice.

sabi nga.

1: let's say you have a girlfriend of about two to three years and then you guys break up. think of a guy friend you've been quite close to before but not anymore...
2: okay...
1: let's say they get together now. how would you feel?
2: f*** him man!
1: so you'll be mad at him and not at your ex?
2: hands off man!
1: even if you don't have feelings for her anymore?
2: you'd still want to take care of her.
1: what if you knew she kinda liked him from way back, even before you guys got together?
2: i'd feel bad.
1: but you guys got together anyway, and it was good.
2: i'd still feel bad.
1: so i'm bad?
2: yeah, you're bad.

para sa mga mahilig sa sapatos

*got this from Trisha. Thanks Twin! :)
a bit long but worth reading!

1. The overused shoes
When I went to Davao for Christmas vacation in 2001, I found what I think was the best shoes I've ever had. It was a blue and white slip-ons with a flower on its strap. Margay ang tatak niya. Ang tagal ko na naghanap ng blue na kikay slip-ons at doon ko lang sa Gaisano Davao nahanap iyun. And I bought the shoes for 500 lang! Feeling ko pa, suwerte ako dahil last pair na iyun. And it was my size!

Sobrang natuwa ako sa kikay kong sapatos. At napakalambot niya! I wore the shoes everyday because they would match anything -- denim, slacks, capri pants, skirt, dress. Gamit ko siya in the office, at the mall, in church, even at the beach!

Dahil araw-araw ko siyang nagamit, at nasuot ko na siya sa kung saan, it was expected na wala pang isang taon ay sira na siya. Sabi ko, okay lang. May Margay naman sa Robinsons saka sa Landmark, siguro naman may ganoong style pa sila. Ngunit napuntahan ko na lahat ng display ng Margay pero wala akong nakitang katulad nang nabili ko sa Davao. Nakadalawang uwi na ako sa Davao at pumupunta ako sa Gaisano, umaasang may makikita akong ganoon klaseng sapatos. Hindi na nga ako naghahangad ng eksaktong ganoon eh. Kahit na kamukha lang o kasing-lambot lang, okay na. Kaso wala.

Iyong kikay blue Margay na slip-ons ko -- na malambot at may naka-angat na bulaklak sa strap, na bagay sa kahit anong damit ko -- ay sira na ngayon. Hindi lang siya sira, nangingitim na sa dumi, at hindi na kayang i-glue ang punit na talampakan. Pero hindi ko pa siya maitapon-tapon. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Alam ko hindi ko na siya maisusuot uli, pero may reminder naman ako na once upon a time, I had a perfect pair of shoes. Hindi ko nga lang inalagaan.

Lesson learned:
Kapag nahanap mo na ang bagay o tao na sa tingin mo ay perfect na para sa iyo, ingatan at alagaan mo. Huwag mong abusuhin. Kapag nawala sila, baka wala ka nang mahahanap na kapalit. At habambuhay mo na lang iisipin na "sana, inalaagaan ko siya."

2. The "maganda siya pero masakit" shoes
May fini-fit ako noon na sapatos sa Celine. Okay lang ang presyo. Maganda ang material. Kikay ang hitsura. At kapag suot ko, nakaka-sexy ng paa. May isang problema nga lang... masakit sa paa.

Pero cutie kasi siya eh. Saka on sale. At sadyang matigas ang ulo ko. Kaya ayun, binili ko.

Sa umpisa, okay lang naman. Keri ko. Saka masakit naman talaga sa paa ang bagong sapatos. Pero habang lumilipas ang oras, lalong sumasakit. Hindi siya meant sa pangmatagalang suot. Habang suot ko siya, parang gusto kong umiyak sa tuwing humahakbang ako. Pagdating ko ng bahay, puro sugat at galos ang paa ko. At ilang linggo din akong may peklat sa paa dahil sa diyaskeng sapatos na iyun.

Kapag sa umpisa pa lang, alam mo na masakit na sa paa at hindi mo puwedeng suotin ng matagalan, huwag mo nang bilhin. Bakit mo pa itutuloy kung alam mong masasaktan ka lamang kapag sinuot mo?

Parang pakikipag-relasyon din iyan eh. May mga lalake na good on paper, bagay sa iyo, tipo mo nga eh. Ang kaso, panandalian lang siya. "Boylet" lang kasi unavailable siya. Bakit mo pa itutuloy kong alam mong eventually ay masasaktan ka lang? Sana, habang maaga pa, iwasan mo na.

Lesson learned:
Kung sa umpisa pa lang, alam mo na masasaktan ka lamang sa bandang huli, huwag mo nang ituloy. Baka mag-iwan pa iyan ng scar na hindi mo na maaaalis kailan man.

3. The shoes that got away
May nakita akong magandang sandals sa Landmark. Mura lang, less than 500 lang siguro. Kakaiba din siya kasi hindi siya iyong style na makikita mo sa babaeng katabi mo sa MRT. Black and white siya. Polka dots ang strap niya pero hindi cheap ang dating. Ang kikay nga eh. tapos, two inches iyong heels niya. Sinukat ko minsan, ang ganda sa paa!

Kaya lang, hindi ko siya binili. Kasi, kakaiba siya eh. Mahirap hanapan ng ka-match na damit at bag. Saka kakabili ko lang kasi ng isang sandals kaya sabi ko, next pay day ko na lang bibilhin ang polka dots na sapatos na yun.

Madalas akong dumaan sa Landmark at nakikita ko ang sapatos na gusto ko bilhin pero hindi ko mabili-bili. Ilang pay day na ang dumaan pero hindi ko pa rin siya kinukuha para iuwi. Hanggang sa dumating ang oras na kailangan ko ng isang kikay na sandals na may print. Naisip ko agad ang polka-dots na matagal ko na gusto bilihin. Pero pag-punta ko sa Landmark, wala na siya doon. Naubos na. Ang ending, napabili ako ng ibang printed na sapatos na hindi ko naman talaga gusto pero wala akong choice kasi kailangan ko na nga.

Lesson learned:
Kung magpapaligaya sa atin ang isang bagay, seize the day! Sa kaka-delay, baka mawala lang sa atin ito at mauuwi tayong nagse-settle sa hindi naman talaga natin gusto. Mas mahirap pagsisihan ang mga bagay na hindi mo ginawa. Wala na yatang mas masakit pa sa thought na abot-kamay mo na lang, pero pinalampas mo pa.

Sino ba naman mag-aakalang may mapupulot pala akong leksyon sa mga sapatos? Kaya nga panay bili ko eh, para mas marami pa akong matutunan. Sa susunod, I will find lessons from bags naman para ma-justify din kung bakit sandamakmak ang bags ko.

- anonymous -

Sunday Morning by Maroon 5

Sunday morning, rain is falling
Steal some covers, share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy
Living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness, she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning, rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Oh, come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow, driving slow (all I need, all I see)
oh yeah yeah oh yeah yeah oh yeah yeah (bones with me)
I'm a flower in your hair
yeah yeah, yeah yeah