taking a breather

Things are looking up. I feel worried about the weekend but I know things will fall into place. It's just the worrier in me that's giving me all these headaches. After the Law "quiz" I feel much lighter, despite the 4 tests I will be having next week on top of the CTK pass.

It's only the cool breeze that's bringing me closer to feeling Christmas. I miss the lights, the Christmas carols, the entire Christmas rush. I haven't passed by Bel Field though, I heard they've already put on the lights. Everyone's saying we're gonna be in Christmas mode when the break begins. We hardly noticed it's less than two weeks away. I can't wait to be up and about, mixing flour and sugar, chips and pecans, counting that all boxes have the same number of cookies, and adding an extra piece at random. I'm looking forward to being caught in a frenzy while getting all the goodies mixed up, and Mom going ballistic coz it'll only be a few hours till the Christmas Eve mass and she hasn't finished wrapping all the gifts yet. It may sound stressful and eyebags-inducing even, but what the heck, that's where all the joy is! I love the Christmas rush, I can't wait to get on the plane and head home. :)
I don't want to miss out on my favorite holiday. :)

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"Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here."
:)

feeling blah

Queena's right, our endurance levels continue to plunge as the months pass. I tire easily, I never seem to have enough sleep, I always feel so burnt out. I don't think I will be having a break either, coz there's a lot due right after the holidays. Thank God I'm going home. I can't imagine spending Christmas here. Spending the last three (going on four) birthdays away from home is enough. Taking away my favorite holiday is totally out of the question. Darn those people who crammed everything into a sem. Boo.

13 days to go before Christmas. :)

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"Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you."

letting out

Reading Ailen's post just made me feel all squeamish. She writes so well. I felt the emotions she had while writing it, how there was so much honesty in what she was saying. Maybe it's also because I can identify with her in some ways, and how afraid I am to actually face the responsibilities that lie ahead of me. It scares me, knowing I will have to face it in a few months time. There's just so much I want to do with my life, I don't know where to start, I can't put things in perspective. It's time I can't keep up with, and I know it will never wait for me. I've got to get my act together. We all need a bit of serious thinking. :)

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I hope from now on I wouldn't be too harsh in judging people anymore, because I feel the karma already. I hate it when people don't understand the extent of ctk, and how they easily compare it with other requirements, those which can be accomplished overnight. Every single experience is different from another, and I think it isn't fair to generalize and compare two things that aren't even the same to begin with. If only we all stop assuming, stop judging on surface level.

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It's December 1. I still can't feel Christmas. Can you?

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"Do you have to let it linger?"
- Linger, The Cranberries