kapuy na!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lisod kaayo dili masuko sa mga tao!!! leche.
It's so hard to just let things go at times like this.

B says time is wasted when worrying. If only it were that easy.
How can he be so calm about everything?

I can't wait to go home.
Kapuy na kaayo!

i need glasses

I've been in front of Lilo since 10 am today doing POM. My eyes are hurting and i can't see clearly anymore! Super blurry vision. Haaay. I hope this will all pay off. And we won't have her as our panelist. Please God.

Off to dreamland...I hope it would be a pleasant ride tonight. :)

taking a break

Random 10
1) Waiting in Vain by Annie Lennox
2) Foolish by Ashanti
3) The Scientist by Coldplay
4) Taning by Imago
5) Soldier by Destiny's Child
6) Crush by Mandy Moore
7) A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton
8) Deeper by Hanson
9) Spin by Lifehouse
10) This is Your Life by Switchfoot

What is the total amount of music on your PC?
Lilo's Media Player says its got 1.52 GB of music stored right now.

The last CD you bought?
A blank CD? Other than that, Hanson's Underneath, which I bought months ago. I'd spend that much only on them and maybe BSB ;p

The last song you listened to before this message?
Wonderful by Everclear.

5 songs you listen to a lot and mean a lot to you:
1) Taning by Imago
2) Everybody Hurts by R.E.M.
3) The Scientist by Coldplay
4) You're in Love by Wilson Philips
5) Sunday Morning by Maroon 5

Mata by Mojofly

Kamusta na, nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang magagawa kundi tumawa
Nandyan pa ba mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan sa 'ting dalawa

'wag na paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Hindi na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa
'di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita

Nakita ko na lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sa iyo

ho-hum.

Something's wrong with BloggerBot. I can't upload any pictures. I've been wanting to change my picture in the profile but to no avail. Gah.
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I'm currently researching for our final project in com. How exactly do you market a cellphone to a HERMIT?!?!?! Oh God help us. The inner artist has long gone. Ayaw na nya mag-isip!
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Had the 3rd finance long test earlier. I spaced out in the last hour of the exam. Great. This is gonna be the last time my favorite "babawi nalang ako sa next exam" line can be used. I hope I live up to it, I can't afford to fail.
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We had the delibs last saturday, most of us are feeling sad with the outcome. Ang labo talaga. Personal issues shouldn't have been part of the process. And because of that we pick the people we know less? What?! Hay ewan.
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A few more hellish weeks to go and junior year will be over. And the year to follow will pass much faster than this one I'm sure. Most of the time I find myself thinking about the future - what's in store for me, what I WANT versus what I NEED to do. I feel so old when I catch myself contemplating about such things! Eeeewww! Why stress on the future? So much can change in a year's time. There's still so much to explore, so much to enjoy. :) But before that, back to hermit-land! Blech!

Stuck by Stacie Orrico

I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave the love behind

I ain't trippin
I'm just missing you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

You kept me hanging from a string
Why you make me cry?
I tried to give you everything
But you just gave me lies

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool
For you

I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true
I'm stuck on you

Now love's a broken record
That's been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we got to play these games we play?

I ain't trippin
I'm just missing you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool

I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true
I'm stuck on you

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool
For you

doomed

Oh great. I am doomed. There's a month left till the sem ends, and every week including final's week, I will not be familiar with the word REST. Why? Because...

FEB
18 - POM LT #2
19 - Delibs (which means I need to finish the attendance asap!)
22 - FIN LT #3
24 - POM PASS 2

MAR
1 - COM FINALS
4 - PHILO Symposium Paper, POM Finals, TURNOVER!!!
7 - ALTP Paper
11 - POM FINAL Paper, Walmart Case
12 - MKT FINALS

Dear God. Help us.

The Scientist by Coldplay

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh, let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
It's only science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing,
At numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' tails,
Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

1st day fun

Ara and i finally concretized our plans of losing these extra pounds by signing up at Moro, originally for the unlimited aero package. We tried Theme Hi-Lo today - it was really fun! :D we were disoriented most of the time but we still managed to sweat a lot! After the water break, we did abs, damn, i didn't know it was that hard. And to think I'm dreaming of having those like Britney's. Haha. Trisha, who was also with us, did the cross trainer after aero. Ara and I wanted to try out the other machines so we decided to pay the extra 200 to avail of the unlimited aero and gym combo. And we also asked one of the trainers, Patrick, to make a program for us! Even more motivation to stick to the regimen! I hope we all lose weight soon...Ewan ko nalang kung hindi pa! ;p
After about an hour of working out on the bike and the treadmill, the three of us decided to call it a day. And to end it? We walked home. From Moro. Take note - WALKED. Wow. I am so proud of myself, for having such energy today. :) Can't wait for the next sessions! :)

birthday photos :)

taken after blowing my cake past midnight...sleepy smiles...:D love ya guys :D

my birthday cake from santayo :D

org stress!!!

As Wednesday draws closer, more options have been pouring into my exhausted mind. I was 95% sure I wasn't going for ds anymore earlier today, but when Shi and I were discussing which members were fit to be officers next year (and the disturbing lack of it), my "vision" for ds suddenly popped out of nowhere (out of sympathy? hhuuuwwwaaattt?!). I had long forgotten about that, thinking I could never execute it, convincing myself that the problem was in the people and not the org itself. Lame excuse huh? So much will change next year because of the move, and it dawned on me that I could actually work on the changes I had in mind for promotions monitoring. Sheesh. Now here I am in the crossroad of choosing where my heart is and where I am needed the most. Two very different scenarios. Ugh. God help me.

stalling

i was supposed to post a survey i got from Trisha's lj, but there was something wrong with the format, so i didn't nalang.
i have a philo quiz to study for but i've been prolonging it since i got home (about 3 hours ago). ang tamad ko na talaga! didn't have any class today because of the VP service awards which cancelled classes held 230 onwards. I only had one class today, Com 14 at 3pm, so yay for me! :D went to Shang with Ara, Kynan, and Yda, had lunch at Tokyo Tokyo (have a japanice day, haha ;p) then went around the 5th. There were two jackets I eyed at Plains & Prints and Nafnaf! Trisha came to meet us for a while since she had work today at Sony, which was just across the street. We dropped off Ara at Podium since she had to practice for her evals, then we went back to school at around 230 to head off to our respective meetings. After the meetings, Yda and I met up and she said Tristan was gonna be done at 8 pa so I suggested we go to Gateway to pass the time. She then called Kynan and asked if he wanted to come along. Even if he was broke from the shopping he did earlier in Shang, he was still game for it. Around 20 minutes of window shopping at Gateway, we bumped into Ara who was also strolling around the area! :) ain't it fun? hehe ;p i was telling Yda earlier, mall-sem talaga 'tong sem na 'to! And to think we have 5 majors this sem...I sense crunch time coming anytime soon...Good luck to all of us!

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Back to the meeting...It was mostly about transitory issues, juniors' essays, when to pick out the next core, evsem and plansem skeds, etc. After the meeting, I approached Aimee and told her I still wasn't sure. We had a long talk about it, told her that I was really torn between staying in ds and trying something new with ACTM. It's hard to balance both so that's really out of the question. Why? Because this time I want to do something where I can give my whole heart to, and not just because I HAVE TO. She did tell me that I should choose where my heart really is, and they'll respect whatever decision I make. One big factor that makes me lean more to ACTM is that I don't see myself in any of the positions available to me in ds. And it's the three-year itch. Sure I'll miss the people, especially working with Kitin and Shiela, my bitchy gals. But then again, there are just some things I have to let go. I can always be a member, although I know it will be different. I have five days to decide, Aimee needs my essay my Wednesday. God give me guidance to make the right decisions.
Told Yda about it after Aimee and I talked, and she was saying the same thing, to choose what I really want to do. They've been a witness to my half-hearted work in ds, something I'm not really proud of. I hope this time I'd be able to experience the sense of fulfillment when I give my best. A few more days to think about it.