comfort zone

You. Yes you. All is fair, so they say. Argh.

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"Sometimes, it's not love. Sometimes, you've just become so attached that you've developed a need for that person. JUST a need. Not love. But you're too scared to admit it, even to yourself. Coz you know that if you do, you might lose the only person that actually gives a damn about your life."

that thing called trust

Maybe I do trust people too easily. Is that a bad thing?

I had my 1st coaching sesh with Isa today. I realized that I lost my organized self for a time (more like last week). I think I need to be more productive. I should be. Go go go. :)

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"Being happy is stringing together all the little things and making them count more than all the bad stuff."
- Bailey, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

of tears and theories

It's been movie marathon day all day. I can't believe Kuno Becker made me cry. Goal is a sappy movie. I'll shed more tears in a bit when I pop in The Traveling Pants. Is this the 150th time I am watching this movie? Sheesh.

It's been an amazing first week in Recruiting. I'm loving it, thanks thanks dear Jess. :)

My new teammates and I have been discussing KC's religion more often these days. She says love is her religion haha ;p there are still so many theories left to be explored, explained, so many questions unanswered. It is a decision isn't it? What happens to the feeling then? I regret doodling during Theo 131.

Were The Beatles right all along? Is love all you need? ;p

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"Love is surely better when it's gone...
'Cause you wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn't there."
- You Wanted More, Tonic

kalipay :)

I didn't want to use happy as a subject, I feel like it doesn't fully capture how I really feel. Kalipay seems to have more depth, probably a deeper sense of happiness, if you could call it that. I guess when I think (aloud or otherwise), I still stick to my first language.

I've only been with my new team for 3 days, and I'm really grateful I pushed through with the move. Yeah it's probably too early to say, but I'm glad I trusted my gut feel. I feel like things are finally falling into place. The environment's light and positive, the people are wonderful, and there's so much to learn. There's also that fulfilling feeling when you know you're helping out someone earn a living.

It's hard to explain, really. Words are failing me now. Thank God for this, truly an answered prayer. :)

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"When God gave you style and gave you grace
And put a smile upon your face."
- God Put A Smile Upon Your Face, Coldplay

free free free

Today's my independence day. From now on, everyday should be independence day ;p
*Thanks to those who started this at work.

Independence Day is for Popi. Let me be free from unnecessary stress, useless worries, endless cursing, negativity, overanalyzing, mind games, freaky unknowns, bad mints, people pleasers, selfishness, narcissism, dirty politics, apathy, expensive airline tickets, what-ifs, empty promises, people who can't stand up for what they believe in, paranoia, petty fights, excessive mood swings, liars.

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"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be...
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need."
- All You Need Is Love, The Beatles

hopeful

Monday's going to be the start of a lot of new things. I'm starting my new post then, and with that I want to be in a different disposition. I want to be more positive, I want to be happier, I want to be so much less of a whiner and so much more of a grateful believer.

Life's been too good. There are so many things to be hopeful for. Thank God for these. :)

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"Always continue the climb."
- Oprah Winfrey

sappy

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"I understand the feeling as small
& as insignificant & as humanly possible,
and how it can actually ache in places
that you didn't even know you had inside you.
and it doesn't matter how many haircuts you get or
gyms you join or
how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends,
you still go to bed every night
going over every detail
and wonder what you did wrong or
how you could've misunderstood.
And how in the hell for that brief moment
you could think that you were that happy.
And sometimes you could even convince yourself
that he'll see the light and
show up at your door.
And after all that,
however long that may be,
you'll go somewhere new,
and you'll meet people that would make your life worthwhile again.
And little pieces of your soul will finally come back.
And all that fuzzy stuff,
those years of your life that you wasted --
that will eventually begin to fade."
- Kate Winslet in the Holiday

nobody does it better

Had a grand time with my friends. Nobody does it better. :)

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*Yda locks the door as we leave the empty condo. Shiela plays around and rings the doorbell.

Yda: Ano ba, walang tao!

Classic. :) i love my friends ;p

eeyore-ish saturday

It's such an eeyore-ish day. Gloomy, lazy, droopy. The sky's growing darker by the minute, the clouds just waiting for the right moment to cleanse themselves.

I'm just waiting for time to pass, I'll have to scoot to work after lunch. Seems like I still have a lot to finish, but now all I want to do is curl up in bed with a good book. I feel eeyore-ish.

Back to my book now.

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"Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm
stranded in the wrong time..."
- Is It Any Wonder, Keane

stacking up

Left work early today, found myself not doing much. I've been meaning to work on my to-read pile after what seems like months. Maybe I'll start tonight. I want to go to my favorite bookstore over the weekend. That should be therapeutic.

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"Quiet nights of quiet stars
quiet chords from my guitar
floating on the silence that surrounds us

Quiet thoughts and quiet dreams
Quiet walks by quiet streams
and a window that looks out on Corcovado
Oh, how lovely..."
- Corcovado, Joao Gilberto/Stan Getz/Astrud Gilberto

the upside

Yeah, I agree, I've been thinking too much.

Let's just have fun. Let's just take lots of photos, bask in the sunlight, be happy. :)

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"Don't leave me waiting too long
Please come by
And I'll fly with you."
- I'll Fly With You, Gigi D'Agostino

baptism

I don't know how to describe it. Hilarious, horrible, memorable. And I'm never gonna hear the end of it. I kept on blabbing about this and that, and it's all worth forgetting.

Thanks to the mixers though, it tasted lovely. :) thanks to those who kept filling me with water. I'm hiding under my workstation now. Sheesh.

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"Who can tell me? I am lost.
I just think that I am strong."
- Love, Matt White