I've never felt as sluggish as I did today. It's hard when I have to force myself to joke around with the rest of the team just so they won't ask why I'm not as perky as I normally am. I just don't like it when people make a very big fuss about things. What capped off the already bad day was the paycheck. Who are they kidding? I know I should be grateful, but some things are just plain annoying.
Really, I know I should be thankful for my job. I'm there to give a fresh graduate a job so that he can start making his mark in the world. I'm there to give a twenty-something breadwinner a job so that she can send her siblings to school, and have enough left for her mom's medication. I'm there to give a single mom a job so that she finally take her kid to Jollibee on a Sunday. I'm there to give people a new shot at life.
As much as I'd want to fill the targets and make their lives better, there are some who I just can't let through. The hopper who left her previous companies just because she got sick of getting cursed at. The teenage dad who wasn't able to get to college because he had to work to buy milk and diapers. The retired seaman who hasn't used a computer in the last 7 years. It's terribly difficult to deliver my regrets spiel, which I think I've already mastered devoid of any emotion.
There are also those in between, who don't have the most superb skills, but whom you know can make it because they have the attitude, they have the drive. After training you see how they've improved, and after a few months you see their names on the employee movement memos pasted on the bulletin boards. They're making their way to the top. They see you in the pantry after 6 or so months, and they still remember how you grilled them, how you gave them a chance. Then they say thank you. That's what makes my work worthwhile. I never imagined myself in this industry, doing what I am doing right now, but I guess there's always a reason for being where you are.
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"Suddenly I see
Why the hell it means so much to me."
- Suddenly I See, KT Tunstall
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